learning

I used to think that I didn't have to listen... take in lessons from bad teachers... but 

then I would convince myself that they were older... that they were wiser 

and that pride was preventing me from learning... 

It's a bit vague but I can apply it in every aspect of my life. From church to basketball... I don't know when that changed though. Because it did... I talked about not being able to learn from people I didn't have faith in. I can't learn from people who seem intellectually parallel to me. 

On Friday the 13th, I sat in class with all of my fellow classmates while we went over our logic homework. I stormed out of class because I was upset... upset that I didn't know what was going on because the professor was allowing students to be wrong... I don't like that. I HATE THAT. I don't want to be someone else's guinea pig... a tool for someone else's benefit... I don't want to be a student who sits down and is fed a bunch of bull until the one trying to teach, figures out a way to succeed... my reason for that is because I get so damn confused and I am trying to learn too.

This came from my Professor saying that we will learn when we try to teach one another... WHAT THE... I thought that was a great idea until I figured out that I can't sit down and let someone try to teach me if they aren't sure they know what they're teaching... 

But I don't want to say I'm not teachable... I don't want to say I am not coachable... because I am... my "teacher" has to establish some sort of credibility in my mind before though.