Fox & the Hounds

Guilty, vile, and helpless we;
Spotless Lamb of God was He;
"Full atonement!" can it be?
Hallelujah! What a Savior!

angry

Ephesians 4: 26 Be angry, and yet do not sin; do not let the sun go down on your anger, 27 and do not give the devil an opportunity.

I've been angry at my family this past week... my brother made a guest appearance when I was studying for my John Milton class.

My brother = bad news.

I made that assumption based on the past... like Dr. Jones said, "If the sun has always risen East," then my assumption was legitimately cogent.

This time, though, he somehow made contact with his sons mom and managed to bring my nephew over.... along with his mother, his brother, his brother... and well... his four brothers.

My mother... was so easily pleased.

But I was mad.

Because I've seen how my family has been there for them...
and I've seen their ungratefulness....
I have seen how they take advantage of my mom
and there is nothing that gets me angrier than that...

They don't see my mom's tears when they abduct my nephew.
They don't wake up to my mom's loud cries.
They don't walk in to her room and find her on her knees, praying.

Not my brother. Not my nephews mom.

So you know what, I am pissed because everyone has forgotten and everyone has forgiven but me. Seeing my nephew's scar on his head because his little brother threw a knife at him doesn't help.

James 1: 20 For human anger does not accomplish God’s righteousness.

Jesus, I am sorry. I need your help. I need your healing. I need your comfort, your peace. I need to trust that you have my family in your hands, God, and not in mine that are stained with blood. Teach me how to trust You.

Spirit Break Out

Our father, all of heaven roars Yours name.

"Love dares you to care for the peo­ple on the edge of the night and love dares you to change our way of car­ing about our­selves." 

-Queen

Contemporary America

Why doesn't anyone like to read essays? 

I'm not going to lie, they're a tad boring.

But... I believe that one of the biggest reasons why people don't like reading them is because the pace of an essay is meant to be slow. Essays are strong and (generally) short with hard hitting, in your face sentences. 

In contemporary fiction you have easy & readable pages with a climax ever so often. 

In Essays, you get punch lines left and right. 

An old professor once told me that real fiction... strong, great fiction is meant to be read like an Essay because there are punch lines everywhere.

Have you ever tried reading Dostoevsky's Notes from Underground like you would read anything else?

How about Henry James's The Turn of the Screw or The Aspen Papers?

Twain?

Shakespeare? 

POE?!

It is all the same. Read it and you won't understand anything until you have a close reading. 

Essays and Fiction are a lot like Poetry.

A last reason why we don't like reading essays is because we are actually using our brains. Essays force us to learn... to think. Did you know that the average reading level of an American is that of an Eighth Grader!

So how difficult do you think New York Time's Best-Selling Authors are going to write the books we read?

Let's. Break it. Down.

They are going to cater to the majority.

Darn.

THIS STOPS NOW. I am not going to support Dumb Contemporary American Literature.

motive change

Today, I took my third terms test for the Milton class... I passed... hands down.

Now I have about 14 hours to write a 5 page paper on some one of the exams... and include every term in my essay. -________- and get additional outside sources. 

So I am going to do that and skip Logic class because I haven't read anything and I can't sit through a lecture feeling stupid. 

I prayed over my Logic class... 

I realized that I need to change... I need to find something in this class that is worth my time because getting good grades for my GPA to go up isn't a good enough reason for me to continue this fight. 

Neither is graduating.

Neither is avoiding College Algebra. 

Well then what would a good reason be? 

In my Milton class, we talked about John Milton's Paradise Regained. What I liked about it was that we were now talking about John Milton's work and not the boring... old... dead author... and talking about JESUS!? It's great! We talked about Jesus being tempted by Satan... telling him to turn the rock into bread and Jesus said there wasn't a good enough reason for him to do so. He said that making bread because someone is hungry would be a good reason. 

Today I drove around with one of my writing pals and I told her how I think Logic would help me... will help my faith... how it will benefit me because I would be adding an extra arsenal for identifying holes in peoples arguments on faith.

That is exactly what I am going to focus on. 

Logic is now 100% about Jesus. Not about me. Not about my selfish A. 

testing

It's August 1st! Almost done with summer school! I'm excited for FALL semester because taking this Logic class has made me appreciate English.

Dear Logic,

You're a nightmare.

I was a few points away from getting an A on the first exam... but Exam two was tough.

Saying that I wanted to cry does not have an ounce of exaggeration... I stopped about thirty minutes in and went to the restroom because the exam was so damn repetitive... repetitive and using terms that I wasn't familiar with.

There I was... in the only stall with dry urine... trying to think of anything but YOU.

I went back and I completed the stupid test that covered Aristotle's Venn Diagram Theory...

I'm thinking of how useless it was because I've peeked at the following chapters and the Venn is nowhere.

Your Archenemies,
                     Adan.


I'll be back this weekend or possibly next week... I have an exam on Milton tomorrow and an Essay due Friday. That and I have to read chapter 7 & 8 before Logic class on Friday.

PRAY FOR ME.